.Thursday, February 12, 2009 ' 1:56 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
i always said i wanna die but i never really meant it until now i guess i never ever felt like dying so much ho much my friends try to help me i just cant get it out of my mind even whn ppl says he is a jerk or not good enough for me to me its not true i am really hurting when they say that cos he is the only 1 i love but who cres now he does not care abt me anymore so like now i am all on my own trying to live life alone its hard espescially when u r badly hurted it seems that it cannot be healed really wishing that it wont hurt really wishing the tears will finally stop flowing down wishing i could draw my pictures happy not sad anymore even if they r not real i also feel the pain cos i draw them but i guess i cannot it hurts so much to even see my pic happ cos i cannot be anymore but i seem so sry for it well i guess my lover will never ever love me back his feeling has gone to other ppl how much i wish it wont come true
